Looking up James Victore designs and art chantry in general the past hour makes me wonder why I don't pursue design, drawing and more things that are art-related like I used to. I have this same acquisition toward a lot that I have yet to pursue--such as, drums, cello, my life. I feel somewhat unaccomplished as of late. I'm very good at wasting time by. . researching things that don't necessarily apply to me directly, planning, et cetera. It's damn frustrating. Classes aren't bad this semester. LGBT critical perspectives class is the most intriguing, aesthetics being the least. When Nik and I are in class writing or doodling in our notebooks we often look up at each other wondering what the hell he's talking about. I want to be less passive toward classes, jobs and obligations. Music is the only thing that has always made sense to me.

I'm content. but not happy. always restless. never stable.